I have a presentation in less than two weeks that I have not even started working on. The book I need to read before I can even begin to write is sitting on a bookshelf across from me. Knowing Jesus has been haunting my dreams. The haunting is for the work not done and the date approaching more than the content of the book. Though I know, as I see it taunting me from across the room, that the content has a much bigger bite than its slim profile can ever let on.
I mean, really, who knows Jesus? Can anyone? Does anyone? There are those who convincingly articulate a special relationship with Jesus, but relationship does not equate knowing. Knowing is much more than relating, it is about equal sharing of personal depth. Jesus cannot have personal depth, there is no person to be had, only a universal presence reigned in by those who help to define that universal presence. There is no uniqueness to Jesus and knowing comes through developing an awareness of individual uniqueness.
This is not to say that a relationship between "me and Jesus" is not unique, but its uniqueness is only because I am unique, not because Jesus is unique. The relationship is all me relating to an essentialized and created structure where I do the essentializing and where I do the creating. I am the uniqueness that is then projected onto Jesus. It is the projection of myself that I might claim to "know".
No, there is no knowing Jesus. Just as is there is no knowing God, or love, or hope, or fear. The best that can be gained is a relationship with such constructs and therefore a deeper knowing of oneself.
